Ah yes indeed it's fun time...

One thing I forgot in all this self-centered turmoil - the lab should be fun. Without a sense of humor the years of toil can quickly turn to torture. Thank you to a friend (you know who you are) for reminding me.

 And before you ask, yes, I have totally sung to my cells. And I swear they respond to it....

Because they can't, they won't, and they don't stop....

Today's quick rant

Dear advisor/PI,

If I don't have time to finish/start the experiments I/you want, why the hell do I need to do the ordering for the entire lab? Why can't the other postdoc or student order for themselves?

Or, more to the point, after I make a list of what we need and submit it for your approval, why do you insist I spend a day shopping for the best price on every single item?

 Yes, money is short. But my time (and apparently my fuse) is shorter. Grrr....

 On a related note, how hard is it for people in the lab to tell me when something critical (plasticware, pipettes, etc) is running low? And anyone got any coverslips we can borrow? I might start using random bits of glass I find on the floor...

I'm back.....

Alright, I know I totally suck, but I honestly didn't know if there was a place for my voice in the blogosphere. Until I read some recent posts and realized that there was still a void that I could answer.... I apologize 'bout the year long absence, but things have been all kinds of crazy here. I'm still suffering from imposter syndrome (which is pretty damn ad considering I'm still only a postdoc...), but I'm getting over it. I still desperately want a job (by that I mean a real, non postdoc job), but I have enough confidence to know that if it isn't going to happen where I currently work, it'll happen somewhere else. Maybe not in academics, but it will happen. And I apologize in advance for those who didn't see it coming - your loss. I WILL do great things, because I am ALREADY doing great things. If you don't trust in me, I don't have the time to convince you. I know the doubters will eventually come around, but I just don't have time for that. I've got two kids and a family depending on me. So excuse me if I'm not patient, but I have things I need to accomplish before I turn forty. Like own a home. Settle down. Have a job that is at least semi-permanent.... I wish I had more, but I'm up to 16 published articles before I even start on the tenure track.... And I'm going to finish my 17th by the end of the week (so help me God...) With that I bid you adieu. And promise you'll be hearing more from me. Although I'm apparently a bit more hostile than before....