I was officially handed my walking papers and I'm more than a little relieved. A little freaked out because they gave me 2 weeks notice and I need to coordinate insurance, but still relieved at knowing that I will be turning a new page at the end of the month. Happy to leave this place and certain people here. Happy I won't have my hellish commute every day. Happy that I will get money for my unused vacation time.
That's not to say I'm not pissed that no one was upfront with me - I'd just rather focus on the positives. Yes, I'm terrified about my somewhat uncertain future. Yes, money will be tight. Yes, I will probably go on unemployment while I look for a job.
But the biggest thing I noticed is that I was how much fun I had with my kids. I didn't just go through the motions, I had deep, belly-laughs as we played tickle monster. Squealed as they hit me with squirt guns before I unloaded the hose on them. Had teachable moments about cancer, responsibilities, and how to react to setbacks in life.
I didn't realize what I had been missing lately....
Yes I'm back, and that has meaning in so many ways. I like it.
Watch out world - I'm back and excited and ready to take the world by storm.