I made a mistake. Perhaps even a cardinal sin.
I expressed doubt about my current Tenure-track job hunt to my wife.
Or more specifically, I mused about the probability of a department actually getting back to me for a follow-up interview.
I probably should have known this wasn't the smartest conversation to have, but I am cursed with a very ineffective personal filter when it comes to my wife. She knows everything. What I think, what I fear, what I love. Everything.
Anyway, she didn't really respond well.
She didn't totally freak out or anything, but she did ask, in a VERY serious voice, what we would do if no one was interested.
Fortunately, I have a plan B (and even C) in place so it wasn't a big deal, but I feel horrible for raising her blood pressure and inducing a panic on the drive home....
So I am now forcing myself not to listen to my doubts, but rather stay positive. After all every little thing is gonna be alright.